I have this incredible man who changed his whole life for me, without my even having to ask. He works like you wouldn’t believe so that I can be home with our two girls, who are, in short, the best kids ever. We have a comfortable home, food to eat, and more things than we need, by a mile.
But I want more.
I troll Pinterest daily, coveting the multi-story homes with laundry rooms bigger than my kitchen and crown molding in every room. I pin, pin, pin–dreaming of one day living in a place like that myself; a house with a wraparound porch and guest bedrooms and hardwood flooring throughout. And while I tell myself I’m “just getting ideas” for the day when we can build our own dream house, with every pin I’m feeling less and less content with my current surroundings and, consequently, less and less content with my life in general. It’s a dangerous thing, letting yourself want like that…
And, double-edged sword that Pinterest is, I came across this graphic the other day.
In what universe is a loving, healthy family and comfortable home not enough? I’ve spent so much time asking God for that higher paying job that I forgot to be thankful for what I already have.
When my girls are grown, they won’t remember whether our countertops were granite or formica, they’ll remember if I was there. They don’t care if their clothes are fashionable, just as long as they can run in the grass while wearing them. And, you know what? As I lay dying, I’m not going to care either. Actually, I’ll bet I’ll really regret spending so much time obsessing over creating the “perfect home.” I’ll bet I’ll wish I had spent that time in the grass with my girls, soaking up the precious moments that are gone too quickly.
Now, I am in no way condemning Pinterest here, I’m just reflecting on the pressure that we feel as mothers now, I think much more than in previous generations, to create the “perfect life.” The internet has made it so commonplace to constantly compare our lives to the lives of others. It’s an easy trap to fall into.
But my take-away is this: I’ll take a joy-filled home and a content heart over the appearance of perfection any day.
So, in the spirit of the New Year and resolutions, I am resolving in 2014 to spend less time wanting and more time saying thank you. Because that kitchen remodel can wait til tomorrow, but this moment with my babies only happens once.